Saturday, October 24, 2009

Home....

Home

It was not the same as before..

Home

It has changed...

Home

It is lonelier than before...

Home

Full of sadness

Home

Feeling of hopelessness...

Home...

the place i longed to go back before

..Crushed..Shattered..

Whatever it is...

I am not in the place to do anything

....Tears everywhere, hatred brewing...

These will continue to destroy my so called


HOME

Many Times Until Now

this song by Mass Missle...always made me think...whether it is love, stdy, problems..


lately this is the song that always made me cry...
the song gives a lot of impact..with my current situation...


gaman no renzoku dattaro kokoro de naiteita ndarou
jibun de kimeta sono yume dake wa yuzurenai ndarou?
Maybe, it was a constant self-control. Maybe, you were crying inside.
You can't give away the dream you chose yourself?

kurushi nda kazu nanka yori utagatta kazu nanka yori
waratta kazu ya shinjita kazu ga
sukoshi dake ooi jinsei de arimasu you ni
More than the number of times I suffered, more than the number of times I doubt,
I want the number of times I laugh and trust others,
and I pray that it'll happen in my life.

wakiyaku dakedo kage no hito dakedo
yume to mukiau toki kurai
man naka ni isasete shoujiki ni isasete
Even though I was always a side character, even though I'm a shadow,
Let me be in the center when I dream.
Let me be honest.

ima made nandomo nan toka akiramezu ni
ima made nandomo tachi agatte kita janai ka
ima made nandomo bokura
nandomo shinjite nandomo yume mite
nandomo...
Frequently, somehow I didn't give up.
Frequently,I always stand up, right?
Frequently, we always trust each other
Frequently, I dreamed.
Frequently...

ima made nandomo baka o mite kita janai ka
ima made nandomo
hito no kage ni tatte kita janai ka
saa shuyaku da yo jibun no yume kurai
wagamama de isasete
Frequently, I had seen the stupid things
Frequently,
I was standing in someone's shadow
Now, I'm a main character.
Let me be selfish.

iron na mono kara nigedashite
sono ketsudan o sakiokori ni shita
sono yume dake wa sono yume dake wa
sono yume dake wa...
I have been escaping from a lot of things
I terminate those decision
But for that dream, but for that dream
but for that dream...

wakiyaku nante mou takusan da
yume to mukiau toki kurai
man naka ni isasete shoujiki ni isasete
wakiyaku janakutte shuyaku de iyouze
I'm sick of a side character.
While I'm dreaming, let me be in the center when I dream.
Let me be honest.
Let me become not a side character but a main character.

ima made nandomo nan toka akiramezu ni
ima made nandomo tachi agatte kita janai ka
ima made nandomo bokura
nandomo shinjite nandomo yume mite
nandomo...
Frequently, somehow I didn't give up.
Frequently,I always stand up, right?
Frequently, we always trust each other
Frequently, I dreamed.
Frequently...

tsuranuku tame ni iroiro mageta
shinjiru tame ni utagatte kita
mamotteku tame ni hito o kizutsuketa
ima made nandomo nandomo
To break off the seal, I bent a lot
To trust someone, I doubted a lot.
To protect someone, I had hurt a lot.
Frequently...

ima made nandomo baka o mite kita janai ka
nandomo hito no kage ni tatte kita janai ka
saa shuyaku da yo jibun no yume kurai
wagamama de isasete
Frequently, I had seen the stupid things
Frequently, I was standing in someone's shadow
Now, I'm a main character.
Let me be selfish.

(taken from animelyrics.com)

Friday, July 10, 2009

RUINED~!!! PURE HATRED~!!!!

SHIT~!!!!....

I NEVER FELT SO MUCH HATRED TOWARDS UITM IN MY ENTIRE LIFE.
SGT MENYAKITKAN HATI~!!....=__=
CANT BELIEVE I AM HEADING TOWARDS THE DARK SIDE OF THE FORCE...


and so, this is the story....
as i was feeling happy to go to DAICON(http://www.daiconnews.com/)...and cant wait to meet Minori Chihara at Cyberjaya(which was supposed to be today at 10)....and suddenly i heard that there was LDK(2 days ago), and...I was...FORCED to cancel the damn trip. (T__T)

IF i SKIP the LDK, i would have to REPEAT~!!! DAMN~!!

MINORIN~!! =__=


the thing is, this LDK stuff, I cant really see any sense in it...
suka hati lah UiTM nak wat ape pn..
ak pun dah naek menyampah.
Last Minute at everything
memang la uni Melayu..
=_=
whatever it is,

NEXT TARGET IS GACC~!!

I HAVE TO GO TO GACC~!!!!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Refreshed once again

On this beautiful weekend,
this morning was the most refreshing weekend ever.
its been weeks i had the most beautiful sleep..^__^

Test ----- OVER~!
Homework--- DONE~!
Sleep ----- PUAS GLER~!
GAMING ---- TBA

^___^

huhuhu

Since then,...

I'll be all right
Because I can keep busy

I'm always hanging on
Yes, because of the promise you made
But now, I don't want to cry anymore

Because we're far apart
It seems as though everything has changed
Even the scent of the breeze that passes me by
And the crowds of people on the subway

It wasn't a mistake, was it?
All those times we met...everything was suffocating me
Even now, I just cannot call up those memories
The warmth of your lips just won't disappear...

Because you always push yourself
You lose sight of what is dear to you
And now, if there comes a time when you love another
Just once more, remember that time

Someday, I want to smile again
Like the sun on the day when I met you...

(Mikuni Shimokawa - Arekara)

Being far from ur loved ones makes us think about them more..
no matter how much u said to urself that, we are already used to loneliness
but somewhere in our heart, we just need somebody to be with us..

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

a whole day + nite...MARATHON~!..


waa...

its been a long day...
SERIOUSLY...


well to watch a quality anime...it was worth it ...certainly..

"Sokyuu no Fafner"
(Fafner Of the Azure)


a world which in despair by the invasion of the alien
A group of younglings with their genetics modified..
they'd go to war...with the hope of getting their peacefull lives back


A TOTAL OF 10 HOURS...=D..with some breaks..hehe

Off to KL...tmrow...wee~~

To meet HER finally...after a long time "menyakat"..."bergelak"..."merajuk" etc~~..

haha..
well i hope this trip will be blessed tho..
to keep my friendship with her like always..
^__^
we'll continue to support each other..and keep company..

let's go there~!..wee~..

Smoga saya slamat pergi dan balek~

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

And so...the long journey began~..=D



Name of character : Maes Hughes
Occupation : Wonderful dad, Secret Service Officer, Soldier
Rank : Lt. Colonel
Weapon : Throwing Knife(preferably) ,Handgun

hoho...today i'll officially start my costume project~!
hehe
with a couple of fabrics...and some brilliant minds(me, sis and Shahid)...
i think i will make it...

^___^





DATELINE - (BEFORE COMIC FEST 2009)

Monday, May 11, 2009

Having Nizar back as MB.....what does 'that" tell me?...

From my personal point of view?....

well...to tell you the truth...i was glad..i was suprised too
this is becoz...this tells us that the judiciary was not bias to the
current government..which is BN...

i do feel glad that BN dint win the case...somewhere deep in my heart
too there was a little sad that BN did not win the case..
it is true too..that Nizar did not lose any confidence from the current
SLA of Perak..having to lose a Malay state to an alternative party..
it really ticks my heart a little...having scrape little by little the
power of the Malays...

Personally "we" (the Malays) should be one and focus on one objective...built a govt that balance spiritually and technologically. In that sense, we can get a better future i think..

To say that the future of the Malays in good hands...I dun really think so...
I think we need another push...to change people ...they need a certain chain of events to change them...

History do tell us this had happened....
GO CHECK UR HISTORY BOOKS GUYS....
events like colonisation and such..
we unite on a same objective...
lots of other events we take examples too


Well anyways...gud luck and do ur best YB...

well..it is just point of view..^__^

=__=..Tagged by Fyza

Well...this is it...but i did it with short answers only la...=D


1.)Q. Can you cook?
of course..love to..i always treat cooking as a chemistry experiment =D haha

2.)Q. What was your dream growing up?
at first...a singer...then a doctor.then an engineer..but now a politician kot?

3.)Q. What talent do you wish you had?
Talent?...to be able to whistle while brushing my teeth.=D

4.)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be?
just a glass of plain water please...=D

5.)Q. Favorite vegetable?
KANGkunG dunno whats da name in english tho..hehe

6.)Q. What was the last book you read?
"Red Storm Rising" - Tom Clancy (my Dad's collection)

7.)Q. What zodiac sign are you ?
Virgo

8.)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
nope...dun want to

9.)Q. Worst Habit?
Don't like to wait..maybe..

10.)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
If i got a spare helmet...or an extra seat in the car..why not.^__^

11.)Q. What is your favorite sport?
Table tennis...been playing in it fer years...have confidence in it too meh.

12.)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
MOre to a realist...believe on my abilities..and noe ur limit.

13. )Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
Tell u a ghost story?..hehehe...

14.)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15.)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you
not a fan of English songs lately...maybe its just not a norm kot..=D

16.)Q. Do you have any pets?
yeah....6 cats~!...soon to get another 4 maybe..

17.)Q. What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
Kne la layan...then send u back..normal je la..ape nak lg..

18.)Q. What was your first impression of me?
Weird...

19.)Q. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
they should be purged from this world...i hate them..

20.)Q. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be???
naa...no need...
21.)Q. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
more to be ur criminal mastermind la..=D..x maw jd partner

22.)Q. What color eyes do you have?
dark brown...like most Asians do

23.)Q. Ever been arrested?
- no comment in that...

24.)Q. Bottle or Draft?
lolz.....=D

25.)Q. If you won £10,000 pounds today, what would you do with it?
I'll think when i get it...^__^

26.)Q. Would you date me?
yeah..why not?...just a date..

27.)Q. What 's your favorite place to hang at?
My house?...

28.)Q. Do you believe in ghosts?
yeah...still do

29.)Q. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
Computer....like always...

30.)Q. Do you swear a lot?
nope..occasionally la..=P

31.)Q. Biggest pet peeve?
they poo alot...=__=

32.)Q. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
unpredictable...

33.)Q. Do you believe/appreciate romance?
YEah...

34.)Q. If you could spend 12 hours with me and ask/do anything you like, what would it be?
JOM TOLONG BUAT COSTUME NGAN SAYA~!...sy letih la..=P

35)Q. Do you believe in God?
of Course meh..^_^ and Muhammad is His prophet too..

Friday, May 8, 2009

K-ON

MOe~!!...

well.that is the only expression i can give about this anime...

this kind of anime makes me like to watch anime...
full of kawaii-ness and moe-ness~~
(OP VID)



ED VID



(Mio looked gler2 hot on the ending vid)
HAHA

^__^

anyone who dint watch this yet..u'd better be~..its a good show to watch when sad..hehe...it will release all ur burden. gagaga

Yui, Mugi, Ritsu, Mio. (KEI-ON BU)
(the not so light music club)

A view on love....what is it?

well i've got to say..after i played a visual novel called Wanko to Kurasou..

the hero did give a very interesting definition of love..its not a definition, but more like a question for us to ponder. what is love?..Is it love if the partner is compatible with us?..is it love if we can get all the attention we need(of course we give it back laa) hehe..

but, the question is?...what is it?...i think really2 hard on the statement.

well, do we gain love if we give someone attention?, or sexual pleasure?...or even material things?...

hurm...love is surely a broad thing..hehe..^__^

COSPLAY 2009 (MAES HUGHES)

after being pressured by one of my best-tee ...i finnaly will write on a new post...
lol..

well i wanna say that i am currently on a project of makin a costume..
This character totally suits me..i had been his fan for quite some time.
well to make this short i want to do cosplay as him.

A pix of him :- (dang i love that uniform )




well..currently my probs are :
- costume too hard to do on my own
- costly (around 500 bucks)
- i cant think any other character than him..
- i want to cosplay as him.

- so, this is a really big problem to me.

- no expertise, no money, nobody to help me...
- again i am on my own in this thingy
- well, no matter i will do like last time..the best that i can
- i am quite impressed with my own damn determination tho. ^__^

well nways, good luck me~!!

Friday, April 10, 2009

BACK~~...(kebosanan melanda)

osashiburi...

haha
its been awhile since i put something in my blog here...

^__^
it was a long break though ...hahaa...

today i am goin to rite something on friends....

yeah friends...what are they?...are they good fer us?..its no longer the rasulullah days where they can be trusted with ur life...some guys may think i am just saying crap..but sometimes they will or may backstab ya...thats what happening nowadays...^O^


even i wrote this...that doesnt mean i dun have any friends....what i am trying to say is...be care on selecting ur friends...hehe

we can never be too sure on what their personality like...^__^

P.S : Please do not be too close when you have friends..seriously its fer your own good..no good if you are too close..it hurts when u lose someone in the future...

ciao..

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

GET WELL SOON FRIEND~!

to my friend~! who is sick now... i hope u are reading this...
^__^
get well soon okeh~!

25 random things bout me to share with u guys~!

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things,
facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tag you. If i tagged you, its because I want to know MORE about you.

(To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people, then click publish.)

1) More to a loner …huhuhu…but not a shy one..
2) In the terms of work…I like to do it efficiently.. “less work~!” is the key word.
3) love Japanese culture, its anime, plastic models…and its own people…^__^ kawaii~!
4) Love my cats a lot…hehe…well I’ve lost count of my cats..haha
5) My life here in Kedah is sux sometimes...especially during da pilling of assignments time…=__= hate it.
6) Enjoying my new laptop, currently ….I love it abah~!
7) I am doing this thing during my BEL class..I can open my laptop during class..=3
8) I’ve download my weekly anime in classes…aint that cool?..cuz my internet connection’s bad in my room…huhuhu
9)love to sing songs out loud…
10) hurm…love to text-ing people maybe.
11) I want to be a politician if I can.
12) I cant live without an internet access.
13) My anime and model collection is my treasure.
14) Currently enjoying his final teen years….soon to be twenty-ish..=__=
15) Ping-pong is my favourite sport~…I can say I am good in it..hehe
16) Just bought a “butterfly” ping-pong bat quite expensive…=__=
17) My bestie cant speak currently..so, I wish her to get well soon…lame dah dia saket nie..cian2..
18)love to play pc games.
19 I love my family so much~!...thanks for everything~!
20) My laptop is the only thing I cant miss to bring to class
21) the dream place I wanna go is, the comiket. Someone bring me there., if u dun noe what’s a comiket. Go google it.~
22) many in my family say I am look like my sis which take after my dad appearance..hhehe
23) How I wish I wanna go cosplaying again..
24) BIG MAC FAN~!
25) smile is a virtue…lets smile~! ^___^

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

~~FYZA~~

KHAS NTOK Fyza Kamaruddin(yg x sabar nak bace post nie smpai call pemilik blog nie)

wahai kawan ku sorang nie...tolong la sembuh dari emo-ness kamu tue..
x syok la camnie..camne nak gelak2 cam biasa...
haha..

and btw..If ur Mr. A and Mr. C adalah orang yg sama....sama ja mcm kita lalui kn?..
ha3
ak sometimes duk tergelak kalo ingatkn blek..
hehehe..

one more thing, yg ak x phm nape ko kne kira hari2 sblum nak valentine's day?...ha2..expecting hadiah ka?...ha3..jauh la..

lastly...i am seriously sorry if i ade buat u terguris ati ka ape ka...i taw kdg2 terlepas ckp rite?..Ape nak bwat..thats my nature...^__^..i hope u'll understand

and i am sorry also for da part that i cant go to shah alam...well i thought u knnow that Kedah and Shah Alam is not that near rite?..hnaha..sgt sorry..i wish i could go..tp i got my hands tied here..sorry again..

hehe..these are only a partial of the unsaid things that i could not say on da phone...haha..
^__^

I am really glad to have u as a friend...^__^
Our friendship ROCKS~!!...yeah hehe

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Emo no more....back to my usual self...

yeay~!!...saja nak gitaw ...xde keje dah nie...

Pening, sedih and waa~~~

hehe..

assignment macam nak rak dah kat kepala niyh...

tolong2...

fyza~!! mane kamu....asyek duk pi shopping ja...

kita duk umah ja....

abang wan pn dah blek..so no more pc games...nak pc dia.~!!...Y__Y..jeles2...nak gak..x kira ..

abah~!!..mane laptop bru...waaa~~

Friday, January 16, 2009

Friends...besties and all..=D

To all my friends...besties...and all...

i would like to thank all of ya...

my family, parents,...siblings...=D

love all of ya....saja nak ekspress kn diri sy nie

hohohoho

Ups and down of my life...

ITs been awhile since i posted something in dis damned blog...
haha
...

After a few weeks of lintang pukang (hectic) life here in KEdah...Finally da holidays is coming near...well there are always da assignments and homework...that's the life of a student rite?
sabar aja la...=__=

ive gotta say..that my life here has been a up side down...whatever that looks good does not look good now...whatever looked bad in past sem..now looks good ...things like friends...well, what i believe is friends do come and go...its not like i dun cherish da friendship thingy...but ..dun noe how to say it la...anyways..

its been awhile... btw...thank to god that i've passed my MUET thingy...

no need to think bout it anymore...yeay~!!

later then

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Continuing da life of a student....

hu3...so long 2008...and here comes 2009..
a year pass by like it was just like a day.
well..what has pass..let it pass..what i care is bout da future..


which is my studies..my studies is surely one of da most important thingy's in my life..
well in this new sem and year...i just wanna say that..i wanna do my very best and i wanna give everything i got this 2009. well thats what everyone gonna say rite?..

^__^

another thing is ..i just wanna to say..that i will be a better otaku this year~!!.
hope my determination to buy a MG(master grade) (cost around 300++) model kit will not fade..ha3..

thats all..bye2 new year..
welcome to the new year..eventhough i am a day late..but what the heck..i am a busy student anyways..

later~!!